Life Sho’ll Ain’t Easy
Doesn’t matter what stage or age you are, it can just be downright difficult sometimes! Especially when dealing with the disturbing mindsets of those closest to you. Who seem to have no other ambition in life other than to make each waking day a living nightmare for you.
I’m telling you: Behind the closed doors of dwelling even the walls cry out to be relieved from the continuous pain that exists, that silenced mouth dare not scream out.
Yet, no matter how controlled the environment, the matters of the heart struggles to conceal the flaws of this painted picture of “perfection” called “Life”.
Sucked down into a whirlwind of hopelessness
Fears of Abandonment rise
Constant headaches from silent cries at night
Yearning to SCREAM at the top of your lungs! Wanting someone, anyone to hear…To Understand without the constant criticism from those opposed to who you truly are. Do you know who you are?
I know, I know, you’re thinking,” It all sounds good but take a day in my shoes. Live my life for a little while and see if you feel the same after that!”
Let me tell you something, just because I don’t walk in your circle doesn’t mean I don’t hurt as you do. To tell you the truth I still carry some scars of my past with me this very day.
No matter how much I want to forget the Haunting past just Sticks
Hard to Kick the repetitive thoughts of mental, physical, and verbal abuse which lead me down a destructive path. See I come from a city of broken dreams where you’d be lucky to live to see the age of fourteen.
Never encouraged, always put down and discouraged being fed negative garbage of being worth nothing more than laying on my back! Gonna have 100 kids living in the projects. I got exposed to so much Vial it started to spread like a Virus consuming me whole to the point that I started to believe the lies I’ve been fed.
No matter how much my mind wanted to exit this world, my heart, my soul wouldn’t let me quit. Had I not developed a personal relationship with Jesus I swear I wouldn’t have made it. May sound crazy to you but He held my hand and comforted me becoming my Best friend through it all This is no psycho babble religious stuff. Even though I failed over and over again I would not lay down and become what they said that I Am!
I’m telling you, no matter what you face, no matter how hard to escape that place of heartache. In time you can still reach your dream! Stand Up and prove to those who have come against you that their words no longer control you! More importantly, prove to yourself that you are more than what they try to make you think you are!
Life isn’t meant to be made easy
Those rough times are necessary to grow, mold, and shape you to become be